Public Opinion Report

tonight's one of those nights...you notice things that you didn't notice before and i'm sitting here analyzing myself. usually my downfall. life's so great right now and everythings working out as i'd like it to...yet i'm still sitting here wondering if i'm the person i once was so many months ago. the days of growth seem to plague me...and yet, i'm enjoying every minute of the formation process. Sometimes I'm not sure what I should think. Just kidding? hmm...that does seem to plague me as well. How often does the human race really use that phrase when they truly mean what they are saying and just "say" they're kidding in order to be tactful in public? and for that matter how many times do we say something just to impress someone else? what's the point of doing that really? They're going to find out in the long run anyways, so why are we not completely honest from the start? I vow never to do that...why are people so dishonest? Are we trying to impress someone else or are we using reverse psychology in order to believe it ourselves? I often times find myself doing that. Tell yourself something enough times and you might just start to believe it. But, why do i find myself doing that...for what reason? I might need a little reassurance every now and again as long as you're willing to give it to me...I'm scared of what might possibly be coming and how things will change. I'm scared of what i'm feeling, but it just feels so right...

Side note: these lyrics are whats keeping me grounded.



The Longest Time

Oh, oh, oh
For the longest time
Oh, oh, oh
For the longest time
If you said goodbye to me tonight
There would still be music left to write
What else could I do
I'm so inspired by you
That hasn't happened for the longest time
Once I thought my innocence was gone
Now I know that happiness goes on
That's where you found me
When you put your arms around me
I haven't been there for the longest time
Oh, oh, oh
For the longest time
Oh, oh, oh
For the longest
I'm that voice you're hearing in the hall
And the greatest miracle of all
Is how I need you
And how you needed me too
That hasn't happened for the longest time
Maybe this won't last very long
But you feel so right
And I could be wrong
Maybe I've been hoping too hard
But I've gone this far
And it's more than I hoped for
Who knows how much further we'll go on
Maybe I'll be sorry when you're gone
I'll take my chances
I forgot how nice romance is
I haven't been there for the longest time
I had second thoughts at the start
I said to myself
Hold on to your heart
Now I know the woman that you are
You're wonderful so far
And it's more than I hoped for
I don't care what consequence it brings
I have been a fool for lesser things
I want you so bad
I think you ought to know that
I intend to hold you for the longest time