1. a LOT of music therapy. It always seems to get me through the worst of moments...
2. I have high hopes of writing for myself these days. WRITE, WRITE, WRITE.
3. Crafting. The knitting I've been doing lately is simple, yes, but therapeutic for me.
4. Yoga. I'm trying to make this a daily routine, though I haven't made it a habit just yet. Yoga and running will hopefully clear some of this also.
5. Meditation and reflective thought. And lots of it.
I need some time to get out of this slump, and unfortunately, I think it's going to take awhile.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Sunday, May 02, 2010
A Quote to leave you with...
"Don't live your life for anyone else. In the end all that matters is your own happiness."
I like this. Why? It makes perfect sense. In the end, there's only me. I have friends, family, a fiance, but at the end of the day, all that matters is that I'm happy. I have a terrible habit of trying to make everyone else happy before I make myself happy. Instead, I end up resenting the fact that I can't do my own things, or that I'm so focused on others that I forget about myself. Needless to say, the little time I do get by myself, I really cherish. And yet, there are other times when I'm so pissed off and angry with the world and everyone else that I don't even want to be with myself.
That, my lovelies, needs to change. I'm tired of standing up for other people and trying to just do the "nice" thing. I do feel like I used to be a lot more "myself" since I would just say what was on my mind and be done with it. Now, there are all these other things clouding the way I really am and I'm turning into something I don't really understand. I know there's a time and place for etiquette and when it's appropriate to say certain things and when it isn't (like at a fundraiser or benefit versus out to dinner with friends), but how do you not lose yourself in this situation?
Really, I just want to be me instead of the person behind someone else. I'm stronger than that. Right now, I feel like I'm living my life for someone else...and I want my own life back. No more sidelines, no more waiting. I will live my own life in search of personal happiness.
A little less "we can" and a little more "I can!"
I like this. Why? It makes perfect sense. In the end, there's only me. I have friends, family, a fiance, but at the end of the day, all that matters is that I'm happy. I have a terrible habit of trying to make everyone else happy before I make myself happy. Instead, I end up resenting the fact that I can't do my own things, or that I'm so focused on others that I forget about myself. Needless to say, the little time I do get by myself, I really cherish. And yet, there are other times when I'm so pissed off and angry with the world and everyone else that I don't even want to be with myself.
That, my lovelies, needs to change. I'm tired of standing up for other people and trying to just do the "nice" thing. I do feel like I used to be a lot more "myself" since I would just say what was on my mind and be done with it. Now, there are all these other things clouding the way I really am and I'm turning into something I don't really understand. I know there's a time and place for etiquette and when it's appropriate to say certain things and when it isn't (like at a fundraiser or benefit versus out to dinner with friends), but how do you not lose yourself in this situation?
Really, I just want to be me instead of the person behind someone else. I'm stronger than that. Right now, I feel like I'm living my life for someone else...and I want my own life back. No more sidelines, no more waiting. I will live my own life in search of personal happiness.
A little less "we can" and a little more "I can!"
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
