Intertwined

"PIece it all together now......"

If only I could actually do that.

"Because I sell myself short, everytime."

Yes, Yes I do. Maybe I'm not strong enough to do the things I think I really should. The things that are best off for me. Maybe I know so little about myself that I have no idea what the hell I'm supposed to do. The right decision seems harder and harder to make and one I'm too scared to try. Always too cautious, always taking the safe path. Trying too hard to sort it without having any real idea of where I'm going. I'm taking a drive, but have no idea what the destination is. Aimlessly walking through life, feeling purposeless, trying to figure it out as I go instead of trying to plan it ahead, but I'm no good on my feet. I always have a solution afterwards, in hindsight. In the moment? Not so great. I'm lost. Emotion stricken. Fear overcomes me and I have nothing. In that moment, I've lost everything I believed about myself. I'm no longer strong. I'm weak; shattered. Who is this girl? She's one I don't understand. One that takes over my body and reclaims it as hers.

If I could cry a thousand tears, I would, but even a tearless cry won't come.

I still have faith, it will start again...